I still love you…

Been so close to giving up,  but there you go keep pulling me back in. Been trying drink and smoke the pain away.  Baby get your shit together, I’m tired of all this back and forth.  Daddy wants to love you to the moon and back. If you don’t realize,  damn it I love you. Trying to hold on, waiting for you to see where this road leads. Hell,  you know it comes back to me,  the place where you supposed to be. Now,  if you think I’m about to beg,  you got the wrong nigga. I’m been a good damn man,  a faithful man,  fuck it.  I’m been the best man from day one,  until you lost focus.  Hell,  I’m a man and I won’t tolerate no disrespect. Wish I could apologize,  but I can’t. If you love me,  then you need to step up and let’s make this happen. I told you before,  you can’t train me or put me on a leach.  I prayed so hard not to choke the shit out of you for all this bullshit. Hell,  I’m surprised you ain’t been shooked. Always,  the simple shit that seems to be so hard. You know I love you and I know you love me.  All this foolish pride keeps fucking up the program,  fuck.  We should have been married and enjoying each other. You keep allowing your attention to be misguided,  and I refuse to share or be second to anybody. Baby,  get your shit together.  I miss seeing your Sexy ass,  miss wrapping my tongue around your sweetness.  Miss feeling the sweat drip down your spine when you climax. Miss how your lips squeeze Thor when he reaches the four realms of your love.  Yes,  lawd I miss seeing me in your eyes and hearing your voice. Fuck,  I miss being your cheerleader. Tired of rooting for you from a far. I’m waiting on you to understand,  I won’t beg to be loved. Regardless of how much I need you. Hell,  you belong with me and we both deserve to be happy,  but baby you gotta get your shit together. I can run,  but I can’t run from you. Fuck,  I’m still in love with you.. I think you see it and keep playing with me. You can tell the way I touch you and look at you  that I’m weak for you.  You supposed to have my last name,  but you stay on this bullshit.  I’m a man and you can’t change me.  But you can love me until our flaws become one.  Hell yeah,  I want honesty,  loyalty and trust.  That’s what a great relationship is built on.  Hell,  you know where your home is and where your pussy gets wet.  Fuck yeah,  I’m still nasty and that won’t change expect the positions and locations.  Till the day I die,  I’m yours.  Again,  I’m waiting on you to get off this bullshit.  Baby come get your man and hold me like it was our last love section. Heaven,  I need you and want you. Miss watching you eat breakfast that I made you and that Sexy ass walking to the shower.  You got me confused with these hoe ass niggas,  and you know this is not me. The only smell on my dick is your sweet ass pussy,  you got me fucked up.  You can play all the games you want,  but my loyalty and dick has never been in question.  I’ve been dedicated to our relationship and supporting you. What’s up baby?  I’m not mad,  just waiting on you to get your shit together.  Scared money,  don’t make money,  we both know talk is cheap and if you claim you love me.. Then you need to get on your job,  don’t waste my time or yours.  As you can see,  I’m not playing.  I don’t have long on this planet and I’m trying to give you all of me.  I’m ready to wake from this nightmare and hope that I’m holding you when I open my eyes. There is no other way to say it.   I love you. I want to grab your heart close to mine,  like a muthaphucker. I want to wake up and make you some cheesy eggs and cheesy grits with a whole lot of dick.  Look me in the eyes and tell me you don’t miss it,  see lying got us where we are today.  Get off that bull shit and walk with me.  Damn it,  I love you.  Don’t make me catch a case.  I trying to marry my last,  forever, and my everything.  So stop….. Muthaphucker,  I still love you…. My door is always open and the key is yours when you ready.  Let’s two step in the name of love.  I want you for the rest of my life.  I only want to dance with you.  Fuck,  damn it….. I still love you. Do I have to say your name……. Come on,  get your shit together so we can walk this life together as one.. 
WRITTEN BY JWSJ