Waiting

Sweetie, Suga foot, honey bun is a few love names I may call you that should be sweet upon my tongue, but nothing sweeter than calling you Mrs Setzer, my wife. From the moment I saw your smile, I was stucked. I wanted to gently kiss the corner of your lips where the smile starts. Stare in the most beautiful eyes I have ever seen, eventhough I can see your pain in them, I also see the strength you have to hide the hurt. I pray one day, that I can be the man in your life to comfort and protect you. There is so many things I wish I could reveal to you, but I was raised not to awaken love in a woman and you’re not man enough to for fill all of her needs. Unfortunately, I have things I’m dealing with and trying to build myself strong enough to be the man in your life. So, I stand on the sidelines rooting and praying for you. I just wish the men that had the chance to have your attention, that failed you. Could see how great of a woman you are. A woman that is intelligent,caring, humble, humorous and hard working. A woman that’s comfortable in sneakers or heels. A woman who’s walk is hypnotizing and touch that is from the heavens above. I wish I could tell you how much I care and want you. I hide behind this #JackAndGinger while #Pssita. I want to be the man that never failed you, so I’m grinding to match your drive and hustle. I’m so caught up in you, I’m so scared that I might write I love you in your mentions, therefore I skip your posts. I’m just a simple man and all I have is my heart and soul to give you. But I know you deserve so much more…. And more you will have. I wish my words could reach your heart and you could see how much I’m touched by your presence. You are everything I’ll ever need and I pray that I’ll be the one to make your heart smile.

WRITTEN BY JWSJ

Rush

Rush into this forbidden island of slience, wanting to scream out my thoughts, The call of this sweet, sticky, juicy, nasty thing called life. I choose to stay on the sidelines hoping to be chosen, but now lealize you have to chose your happiness….. It is far time to move in that direction where a NUPE must seek his kingdome……… There has been many lies, truth be told life is hard and you may struggle…. but the struggle is what made you who you are…. Wear those scars with pride… Think you did not give up!!!Rush into this forbidden island of slience, wanting to scream out my thoughts, The call of this sweet, sticky, juicy, nasty thing called life. I choose to stay on the sidelines hoping to be chosen, but now lealize you have to chose your happiness….. It is far time to move in that direction where a NUPE must seek his kingdome……… There has been many lies, truth be told life is hard and you may struggle…. but the struggle is what made you who you are…. Wear those scars with pride… Think you did not give up!!!

WRITTEN BY JWSJ

Are You?

My greatest fear was thinking I was never being enough for anyone to love. That fear caused me to run blindly and ignore red flags. Praying one day that someone would save me from myself. I allowed others to use me and abused my heart. It had gotten to a point to where I didn’t recognize myself in the mirror. Life gave me some hard lessons. Those lessons taught me that love begins with me. I had to learn to love my flaws and imperfections. I had to learn that sometimes I maybe too much for some to handle. I took a leap of faith from those rugged cliffs of never and fall heads over heels in love with myself. I learned that love is easy and that it’s us that make it difficult. I learned that the word love comes with actions that will embrace your soul, comfort your heart and stimulize your mind. Love is easy and I’m easy to love. It just takes honesty, loyalty, commitment and comprehension. I’m ready to love… Are you?

WRITTEN BY JWSJ

Inspired

I’m trying to stand strong, but when I hear your voice. I get so weak and I can’t run. I’m trying my best to resist you. So scared of falling, but if i do, I know I will fall into the softest place on earth. In your eyes, I can imagine what love is supposed to be. I don’t want to just kiss you, I want to hold you close, so that you can feel that my heart beats only for you. Crazy how a simple hello, can turn into a chance for happiness forever. I want to be the reason you smile at your phone. I want to be the man that kisses the corner of your lips, where your smile begins. I’ve been been a statue on the rugged cliffs of circumstances, too scared to take that leap of faith, then came you. In you I’ve found a friend, actually more than a friend. Someone I can share my loneliness with, my hurt, my desires, hopes and dreams. In you I can actually see, what I’ve been missing. You are not scared of this awardly, slightly different and corny man. In you I can embrace happiness. I want to be your first, middle, last… Your forever. My heart is yours if you desire it. I have no desire for it, if I can’t be the one to make you happy. When you read this, no you are my inspiration. I no longer have to imagine what love could feel like… When I see the twinkle in your eyes. I know love is a simple embrace away…

Inspired by T. K

WRITTEN BY JWSJ

Here…..

Here I am, just a simple man. It took one kiss of your lips and my heart hasn’t stood a chance. For years I’m been running from what my heart has needed and it’s you. A woman full of joy, understanding, caring, dedicated and willing to fight for love. I wondered around this world in search of you, reality once smeared with visions of your beauty is now in my hands. I refuse to lose you now. I want to taste your dreams, swim forever in your sweet nature and erupt in escasty of my dreams forfilled. I want to fall to my knees to worship a woman that has conquered my insatiable desire to be loved. I want to be the bass, in the speakers that puts the rhythm in your hips. I want to be the melody in your heart that will be the soundtrack of our love.

WRITTEN BY JWSJ

Sometimes

SOMETIMES, I wish I knew the reason that Love is not always the same, SOMETIMES, I wish YOU could feel the same, SOMETIMES, I wish I never had to let your hand go, SOMETIMES, I wish there was more PEACE, SOMETIMES, I wish I could feel your heart next to mine……. SOMETIMES

WRITTEN BY JWSJ

Unlove You

For the longest, I’ve been hiding in the darkest corners of my mind. Been trying to unlove the one I gave my heart to. I’ve blocked all thoughts of you… But damn.. Love there you go pulling at my heart strings. I gave you honesty, loyalty, commitment and sacrifice my all to make you happy. In return I got lies, cheating and the robbing of my time and money. What is a man to do when you do everything Love ask of you and Love don’t love you back. I wish I never knew this pain. I tried to accept the lies as truths, but looking at the fool in the mirror… I still couldn’t see us together. I don’t want to feel like this, I don’t feel like a man. I don’t feel like being on the wrong side of another love song. I tried to smoke the pain away, but it only gave me vision of you… Tried to drink it away, but I blamed it all on the alcohol…. Cause my friends said I was drunk off the “Cookie”. But I can get “Cookies and Milk” anywhere. What I’m needing is for Love love me back.

WRITTEN BY JWSJ

Vulnerable

I want to be vulnerable and let my guards down for you. I want to forget any and everything that hurt, that kept me from loving you. I want give up these guarded walls that kept your warm smile from touching my heart. You have given me more than I could ever dream. You have shown me love and taught me how to love again. For so long, I felt I was on the other side of a love song, doomed to be hurt and left alone. You saw my worth and cherished my flaws. You loved my imperfections until they were yours. You caught me when I was falling and guided me to where love could be found. In you, I have a best friend, a lover, a comforter and protector. You are the woman of my dreams and the air I breathe. Words can never truly describe, what you have done to my life. My tears , now have a different meaning. No longer ashamed of love that was lost, but overjoyed in what I have found. I have fallen awkwardly in love and I’m geeked up off of your love. If this is the way love is supposed to feel, I want to be in love for the rest of my life. With you, I have found happiness and a place to lay my heart. No longer dressed for the wrong occasion. I no longer have to fight for love, no longer a soldier of love; there no need for my armor. To you, I surrender all of my love. In you I have found my first, my last and my everything. I love you.

WRITTEN BY JWSJ

Khapter 48… Death

My greatest fear had always been death…. Well, until I died!!! There was no white lights or anything glorious. Just a dream of my parents riding me around and laughing, then suddenly stopping and putting me out. My recovery was difficult, being humbled by the fact that my child had to help me to walk and even going to events because of memory lost….. I didn’t know or recognize faces. 20 yrs of lost memories, I Sutter and have motor skill issues. Yes, I wanted to give up… But that’s when I realized my true fear. The fear of not living life God gave me. Not taking the time to enjoy my family, friends and creating memories. Regardless of how bad my body has been beaten, it will never keep me from experiencing life and the joys it has to offer. We all will have difficulties and obstacles we have to overcome. We all can overcome them by maintaining our faith and fighting. There is nothing wrong with a good fight and a good fight we will put forth. Start living life and enjoy the good and be thankful for the chance to live.

JWSJ

Khapter 48…. Winter stages

I am a rare breed. I’m motivated by my kids, love and well-being of others. I believe in love and everything that involves that helps build that foundation. I don’t care about superficial and material things. Beauty and money don’t exist in my world. I’m more concerned about your interior spirit and energy. I need that connection and confirmation of honesty. I don’t have a on and off switch, I remain the same person. But, if there is no connection, no honesty and no positive energy….. I’m on to the next. I’m in the winter stages of life and wasted too many quality years entertaining those who play games. I’ve learned self love beats out fake love everytime. Never allow loneliness to make you a fool. Learn to cherish who you are and appreciate your light….. You are imperfectly perfection!!!

Written by JWSJ