Fool’s Goal

 

 

Here I am, standing in the same place, with the same heart break and singing the same song. I can’t believe that I keep getting taught the same lesson. I can’t believe that all the things I felt were not true. I had one goal and that was to love and be loved unconditionally. I guess I was the fool, who was easy to spot. I wore my heart on my sleeve and right there is where I fucked up. I knew deep down inside things would never work, but pride would never let me admit defeat. I gave until the pain was unbearable. Living a lie, wishing it would become true. I saw all the red flags, but I failed to wave the white flag and run. Even worse, I continued to give and break my own heart. Told you all of my truths and revealed all of my flaws. I let my walls down and you decided to take your turn to destroy a man who was on his bended knees praying for love and happiness. I admit I fell for the false promises and empty efforts. Yes, I was the fool and I played the part. Standing here with the dumb look on my face holding the Oscar for a type casting that seems to be a permanent role. I believed that you would be the one to break this curse. Finally the princess would kiss the frog and turn this prince charming into a reality. Living a dream that was not true, entertainment at its finest. I was the clown in your circus and had not real chance of being the man you could love me. I can’t believe I was this foolish, cause I knew the patterns and the actions that was too close to my past. I can’t blame you, its my fault for chasing a Fool’s Goal.

WRITTEN BY JWSJ

Daydreaming

Here I am sitting here daydreaming of you and I. They say the Revolution will never be televised, but I wonder if they would televised the revival of Black Love. When, I see your smile, I see my wife and everything that would make my world complete.  Something just can’t be described, even if I had a billion words, I couldn’t describe what your presence does to me. Like Nas said, the world is yours and you are perfect in my world. The feeling of loving you is all shut up in my bones and I’m not trying to shake this feeling. Some say my nose is wide open, I simply say I know what I want. And yes, I want you and only you.  I want to share new music, dreams and new adventures with you. I want to comfort you when things seem bleak. I want to encourage and support you.  I want to be your biggest fan. But most importantly, I want to be your man. This is more than a summer love, this is a lifelong dream to marry a woman that can be my best friend. I know these are just mere words, but I’m ready, able and willing to put those words into action.  Raw and unadulterated love is what I have for you.  Yes, I’m a fool for you and I can’t hide it. Daydreaming of the day you see that my heart is for you.

WRITTEN BY JWSJ

Happy Born Day. We love and miss you

Words can not express the love and gratitude I have for my namesake. My father was such a loving and caring man. He was a leader and a provider, a man that would give you his last. Eventhough it’s been 15 years since he passed, there so many people that still remember him and talk about him with high regards. I was truly blessed to be his son. I know he would be proud of his grandchildren, they all are hard working and caring just like him. There is not a day that goes by that I don’t think of you and mom. I know yall are on the choir singing a song of joy in heaven. We love and miss you. 

A strong woman…

#MyCurrentSituation #MyDaughter #MyPrideandJoy Mahoganey clowning… She knows how to brighten my day. Besides my mother. This is the strongest, most loving and supportive woman I have ever met. I’m so proud to call her my daughter. I’m definitely blessed and truly thankful. I can’t wait to see what the future holds for my daughters. They are amazing and have a special angel watching over them.##TeamSetzer #WeAreStrong #TeamNoSleep #BonnieandClyde #RoadWarriors #LongNaturalCurlyHairAndDontCare #Thekoolest46yrOldNupeYouEverMet #HolliesHeroes

Don’t tell me….

Don’t tell me….. That love costs,  that the touch of the one costs a fee.  Being able to look into the eyes of the one that captured your heart,  has to be secured by funds. The tender kisses that is sweet as morning Dew can be withheld because my funds are low? Don’t tell me that I can’t  see and be comforted by love because my bank account doesn’t match the next man.  Love is simple and the greatest gift any human being can receive. A simple glimpse of your smile or seeing the look in your eyes when I say I love you would mean the world. Having you so close to my heart,  that my soul smiles. Along the way,  love got replaced by money… Some believe that you love them by the money you spend.  Once you run out of money,  so goes love.  I’m old and I want love like my parents.  A love that was genuine and real.  Where you can sit and hold hands.  Better yet cook dinner together and laugh when washing the dishes.  Then relax on the porch underneath the stars enjoying the company of your mate.  Love like that is classic. A love that makes you write a poem to show your love,  waiting to see their smile….. Don’t tell me…. I can’t have love like that…. 

With love

I love to cook and if you see me,  you’ll say that I love to eat also.  I love cooking for the women in my life.  The pic above is my daughter’s favorite and yes,  that is going to be a special delivery to her at school.  I try to do as much as possible to motivate and supporting the women in my life.  I’m not rich,  don’t have a fancy house or car.  But,  what I do have is a good heart and I will give my all to you.  Too many people look for materialistic things to determine your worth and neglect your heart. I’m just a simple man willing to do what I can you make you smile.  Yrs,  I drove 2 hours just to deliver the shrimp to my daughter.  The look and smile on her face was well worth it.  As a father and as a man,  I give my all to the loved ones in my life.  It’s such a blessing to be a father. 

My Mohawk

Lol… I laugh everytime I hear…. Aren’t you too old for that hair style? “.. The answer is yes,  but the reason I’ve been  rocking this style is deep.  I rock it for my child.  8 yrs ago, she was having self-esteem issues about the way she looked, even though she is simply Beautiful.  Looks just like her mother.  We were having our usual talks and I explained to her, that’s it’s what’s on the inside that matters. If someone doesn’t like you because of your appearance,  it’s something wrong with them.  You don’t have to prove anything to anyone…. Then her smart-ass caught me off guard…. “why do you iron your clothes and make sure your appearance is on point?  You care how people look at you!!”… Damn,  she was right… I did care,  and she asked me to do something different and if I can deal with people looking at Me different,  then she could too.  Yeah,  she put me in a hard spot. Us ugly dudes have to dress nice and have our clothes on point to get a Hello or a text back… Facts… She asked me to get a Mohawk… Really… And I did,  this was for my child.  She was amused  and Happy that I was willing to sacrifice my looks to prove a point.  The hair cut stayed as a tradition for her not allowing anyone determine who she is.  A sign of knowing your worth and believing in yourself.  I still wear the bowties and bright colors on game day.  She spots me in a crowd and gives me the thumbs up. As a parent our job is to support our kids,  protect our kids and to love our kids.  I have given my all for 18 years and watching my child living out her dreams.  I love our daily talks and texts. Now,  I can smile knowing my purpose for my second chance was not wasted.  Now it’s time to give the woman of my dreams all of me. I shielded my child from past relationships.  Most women were jealous of a child or simply wanted to use me.  I’m glad I was strong enough not to allow my child to be affected. Because the way you carry yourself is going to affect that child.  I’m a fighter,  lover,  survivor and I never gave up.   I see that in my child.   We that Bonnie and Klyde. 

Missing You

Missing you… It’s been 10 years now and still seems like yesterday.  I wasn’t going to post this because the pain is still here. I miss you and Daddy so much.  Your Grandchildren are amazing and Mahoganey is just like you.  She is loving, caring and never gives up.  I want to thank you and Daddy for being there for us.  And yes the “Girlfriends” theme song still bring me to tears.  I know you and Daddy are on the hymn choir in heaven and I can still feel yall protecting us.  Thank you for everything… I love and miss you… 

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I promised my daughter I would do this for her graduation.  As you can see,  once she laughs,  I can’t help but laugh too.. I’ll make a fool out of myself just to keep her happy.. It’s nothing like being a father and being there for your child. 

Rocking with the Best

Rocking with the Best….. It’s the small things in life that brings the most joy. After getting off work…i had the pleasure of taking my daughter back to college. I love the talks and laughs we have while on the road.  Moments in time that will create memories and thoughts of laughter.  Simple things like this reminds me the joy of life and being a father… I love fatherhood and being there for my child……